But Mary it’s very difficult to leave them, especially when you’ve grown up in them and they are part of your society, culture, tradition and every day life.
I know James, and it’s going to be very hard for many people to do so, however when ones soul is ready, then one will not be able to resist or fight ones inner pressure, and one will have to change.
So our soul drives everything? What about our free will?
Within the realm of personality expression you have your free will, but your soul underpins everything, everything you do, think and feel. Your soul drives your existence in Creation. And if you submit to its control, which you can only do by living true to all your feelings, then you’ll feel such things. You’ll be able to live knowing your soul is in control of everything, but part of that control is allowing you to have the experience of having a free will.
So we believe we have free will, when we don’t actually have any at all.
Mary, will you come again as Jesus said he will?
I will come with Jesus when we return to Earth in the far distant future. We will come together, as that’s how we always do things.
So even if the Christian’s were right and Jesus did come again, they’d still have to accept you coming with him.
Yes, something that they’d not have bargained for. They want it to be an all-male thing, they don’t want a meddling woman involved, that would only complicate things to much, and threaten the men’s power and control.
As you are aware, the higher spirits that brought evil to Earth all those years ago, set about creating the imbalance of the sexes. And so the ongoing subjugation and suppression of women, which is really the truth of women; and the unnatural superiority given to men, causing men to deny their truth, has become so much a way of life that many people fail to see that it’s wrong.
Many of the men - speaking for myself. I have all the male superiority stuff.
As do many women, for many women are good at gaining the power they feel they need whilst in the subservient victim role. Both men and women are equally to blame. You are all equally victims. It’s not all Eve’s fault. Adam is to be blamed equally for they both allowed their relationship of truth to become untrue, just in different ways reflecting the different natures of men and women. And NOT as portrayed in the Bible Story. The Urantia Book is a little closer to the truth, but still heavily weighted in the masculine. And even though Eve did transgress the universal laws first on the physical level, followed by her mate Adam once he’d resigned himself to their fate, it could have just as easily been the other way around, for they had both reached the point of relationship failure, of their denial of truth.
Why wasn’t it the other way around?
Because those evil spirits who were plotting humanity’s downfall and fall from grace or truth, knew that if the onus could be placed on women, she being the spiritual leader of truth, as she is the mother, then their insidious (nefarious) game would become passed on down through the generations, this being the control they sort.
The woman being the spiritual leader, that’s what it says in The Urantia Book.
Yes, as she is, as she is closer to her feelings. So she can lead either way, into the light through the truth, or away from it. Marion leads you in your feeling expression, thereby helping you to grow in truth, as you come to understand the truth of your evilness.
She does, I haven’t a clue when it comes to expressing my feelings. I’ve learnt it all from her. I was heavily shut off from them, and she’s had to not only help me, but do all her healing herself, as I’ve not been much good to her in that way.
So women’s liberation, is that a genuine attempt by women to reclaim their spiritual leadership?
It is in some ways, however the trap many so-called liberated women fall into is in competing with men for power in their negative state. So it’s a false liberation, if you will. It is however very necessary to at least bring women to a more even level within their evilness, and from there, if women want to be sincerely true to themselves, they will need to go further still by doing what I say. By honouring ALL of their feelings. And by being brave enough to.
Your feelings are the key to your spiritual growth and ascension of truth. However in your negative truth-denying states you deny many feelings because were you to accept them, they’d make you have to confront yourselves, you’d have to take a very serious look at yourself in the mirror and you’d not like what you started to see. But it is as simple as that, and it’s eluded humanity all these years. If you are to live true, that means you are to live true to yourself, which in turn means: live true to all you feel. And so if you deny one feeling in any way, you can’t live true to yourself and will remain living untrue. So feelings are the key, however as you’ve come to understand James, it’s not as easy as it might sound to simply start accepting and honouring all your feelings instead of doing all you can to dishonour and reject them.
You’re telling me, I had no idea.
You didn’t, but you’re getting the hang of it.
I don’t know about that, the more I feel I make any headway, the more I feel I don’t have a clue about any of it. Marion is the bastion of truth, she never deviates from expressing her feelings. They all seem so strong in her, and she is so sure and self-confident and super aware and sensitive to them. I blunder along behind her... what, what was that? A feeling was it... that slight aberration within me... and ah... what, sort of feeling - what am I feeling... I don’t know. It’s bloody hard work.
It is James, but as you know, it’s the only way for you to come to terms with your negative condition.
Yeah I know, I’m getting to know. I’ve been getting to know for these past sixteen years, and I’m still getting to know.
No one said it was going to be easy.
No one said anything Mary, it was all Marion’s idea. It wasn’t until we were well into it, that you and Jesus started to fill me in on some of the extra details.
You needed to establish firmly within yourselves that it’s what you wanted to do, and to fully commit yourselves to the process without any interference, including encouragement, from Jesus or myself or any other spirits. To come to it yourselves and to see and feel and even know to a certain extent that it was the way, and the ONLY way, out of your evilness, and that to fully divest yourself of your badness, you had to ‘go into’ your feelings.
Yeah, and it’s turning out to be one hell of a trip. For Marion it’s just life. She is it, she is feelings, it’s what she does whether she likes it or not. But for me with my more mental approach to it, I feel like it’s one horrible experiment I’m being subjected to. That God gets his kicks out of putting me in the shit, and then bringing to me to a point in which my life failed, then start to turn me around and me wake up, all so I can have the fun of trying to get myself out of the shit. Oh it’s been great fun, I highly recommend it!
But has it been worth it James?
Well Mary, that’s just it. It has. And what more can I say. It’s the most incredible thing I’ve done in my short life, it eclipses everything I’d thought and dreamed about. And as horrible as it is because I feel so bad so much of the time, as all my yuk surfaces, during my good days, rare as they are, I do know and I can feel that I am progressing in truth and changing. When I look back at how I was, and how I am now, well it’s not only worth it, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. And I can’t go back, no way, I can’t even get off the train and take a breather. And with all my heart I want to see what happens. I want to see, to experience, if there is indeed, an end. The theory and all you and Jesus have told me says there is, but until I actually experience it, and to know that I am fully healed and no longer evil, well... But that’s all I long for now, and of course for the truth of myself, the truth of my feelings, and our Mother and Father’s Divine Love.
And would you want to go through it all again James?
Mary, ask me that question once I’ve finished healing myself. As you and Jesus have told me, when I am free of my negative state and being of a positive one, I will see everything and feel everything in a new light, so I’ll wait until I feel a bit of that light around me, and in me, or whatever it is.
It being the light of the truth you’ll be living.
Yes, so I’ll wait until I’m living it. And in the meantime, please don’t ask me how I feel about it now, because that’s what Marion keeps asking me, and it’s back to drawing board... now what is this feeling I’m feeling, where is it, what am I feeling, what does it feel like, and what does it mean...
Mary, I’m going now, it’s dinner time. Thank you once again to both you and Jesus. I do love writing with you both, you’re always shedding more light on things even though we’ve been over some of this countless times. I’ll speak to you soon.
Speak to you then James, bye for now.