Sorry Mary, but I’m still coming to terms with what you said earlier in the previous post, that really we don’t need any formal religions at all, like, no churches, no priests, no religious men or women, no holy places, no nothing like any of that.
To imagine that one day humanity will not have such religions... that’s hard to imagine.
One day it will happen, but not for a long time, however in the mean time, as more people come to understand about the significance of their feelings and their relationship with the truth; and as they venture into doing their feeling-healing, (or soul-healing, which is inclusive of their feeling-healing, together with longing to become at-one with God through longing to the Mother and Father for Their Divine Love), then less power and control will such institutions have over the world.
We are all so heavily indoctrinated into believing so many of our bad feelings are bad and should never be expressed, god knows how we will ever change that.
God does know, and so too will humanity as they do it. And what you say is true, you don’t like feeling bad, which is natural enough of course, no one does, but that doesn’t mean you should do all you can to stop yourself from feeling bad. You see James, by stopping your bad feelings from being there, and by stopping yourself express them, you ARE making yourself feel bad, worse than you are already feeling, even though with your mind your might convince yourself that you are feeling much better. But you are deny feelings, denying parts of yourself, as your feelings are a vital part of yourself coming into being. Each feeling is like a newborn child pushing its way into Creation, and you are knocking it on the head saying no, you can’t exist, go away, I hate you, I don’t want you. And then once you’ve banished your bad and unwanted feelings, which is also the greatest act of self-hated you can do to yourself, you have to then use all your will and all your mind to then keep those bad feelings suppressed, for if you don’t, they’ll come up again, causing all such grief all over again.
However, by keeping your bad feelings suppressed, you are keeping them and all that pain and grief you are causing yourself, to remain within you, when all you need to do is let them be expressed, to emote them, to speak about, or yell or curse or do whatever you feel to express them. And once expressed, they are gone, leaving behind the truth you are to see.
I like that: that the truth is left behind, it is revealed as we express our feelings. And it is, that much I’ve had lots of experiences with now. And it does make you feel good when you see the truth.
As I’ve said, our types of creation James, that being souls that are truth-loving, do love the revealing of truth to oneself, it gives you many good feelings when you see how it is for yourself. And that only increases as you become true, healing all that’s preventing you from living a feeling-led and so truth-ascending life. And as Jesus and I have told you, once you are healed, then your growing in truth will accelerate markedly, you’ll feel like you’re flying along as it all clicks into place. But in the meantime, it’s keeping your nose to the grindstone I’m afraid, the relentless struggle for you to express your feelings to Marion, all so you can break down and break through your feeling expression blocks. And those blocks consist of all the parts of your relationship with your parents and grandparents from your conception that have prevented you from naturally coming out into being. They heavily clipped your wings, you’re a bird trapped in a cage, but one day James, you’ll set yourself free, for that’s what you are doing through your healing. You’re taking responsibility for your untrue state of mind and will, and you’re saying, no more, I don’t want to live this way anymore, I no longer want to be false. And you’re getting there. And all you have to do is see all the truth the Mother and Father want you to see, and the truth comes as you express your feelings, as you well know now.
It is incredible Mary, how I might be feeling so bad, so wretched, so utterly fucked, and with no feeling of ever feeling better or good, just completely immersed in my bad feelings, and I mumble and bumble my way along trying to express how bad I feel, with Marion coaching and pushing me; and fuck, as I feel so bad, the last thing in the world I feel like doing is speaking, let alone speaking about how shit I feel; but somehow I manage to struggle on, and then all of a sudden, the truth starts to come to light, I see what it’s all about, and almost instantly the bad feelings are gone. And I feel l’ve come up out of my hole, the darkness no longer there, and I no longer feel weighed down with the horror or yuk of it all, I feel light and even good that I’ve had my breakthrough and understand more about myself.
It’s a wonderful process James, revealing truth through your feelings, and all the more special when you’re trying to extricate yourself from being evil. It’s doubly hard than just growing were you perfect, but of itself, as you’ll one day say, doubly rewarding.
I hope so Mary. There’s got to be some good reason for God to put us all in this mess; for God to subject us to evil and then make us have to get ourselves out of it.
Oh there is James, that much you can count on. And in time, even as it is already beginning to happen to you, the Mother and Father will reveal all what it’s been for.
So Mary, all that you’ve been saying about our feelings, is really all you and Jesus are helping us with, that being what we should have received from you all those years ago.
Yes, however had you been perfect, we’d not have come to Earth, we’d have gone to another rebellious world, of which you understand from The Urantia Book a few currently exist in Nebadon because of the Lucifer Rebellion.
So we came to you, knowing you would reject us, that you were not as yet in a state of mind to accept all we could have told you; that being, all about your feeling denial, which is your own self-rebellion, for that’s what you are doing, you are going against - or rebelling against - your own true self. You are in perpetual crisis, denying or refusing, and so rebelling, against your own personality coming into being. You are doing all you can to stop your soul manifest you in Creation in an ongoing truth evolving and truth loving way. This being the influence the Rebellion has had on you all.
So our self-denial, that being what is our feeling-denial, is really rebellion against our self, and we’re saying: we hate ourselves, not loving ourselves.
And that’s borne out in how you treat yourselves. Your self-help areas of life keep telling you that you should love yourself, giving you all sorts of ways of doing that, but if you look more closely at such ways, even if they say they involve feeling acceptance, they are all still ways of just apply your mind over your feelings, yet more ways of deluding yourself into believing you’re treating yourself more lovingly.
And it’s true what you said James, you are self-hating, which is all those dreadfully bad feelings you keep very heavily buried and locked away. Very few people have ever ventured into opening their Pandora’s Box. Some people have been forced into doing so, and have lived even most, or a the greater part, of their lives in it; and some have been forced into institutions being called mad, and all because their bad feelings have been too overwhelming. And yet, it’s not actually that their bad feelings have swamped them into oblivion, it’s that their beliefs are they are not meant to feel as they do, they are not meant to hate themselves as much as they do, that causes all the problems. And yet if you have a feeling of hating yourself, then you have a feeling of hating yourself, it’s a very real and valuable feeling. AND IT’S A PART OF YOU AND SHOULD BE RESPECTED AS SUCH. And you should embrace it, not try and keep it away; and then seek to understand the truth of why you hate yourself, this leading you deeper into yourself, and no doubt hating yourself even more, but those are then more bad feelings for you to express and uncover the truth of. And if you embrace your feeling-healing, you will find that as hard as it might be, to feel bad so often and so much and to such an extent, still, you’ll never be forced beyond all you can deal and cope with - PROVIDED YOU KEEP ACTIVELY LONGING FOR THE TRUTH OF YOUR BAD FEELINGS; AND DOING ALL YOU CAN TO KEEP EXPRESSING THEM WITH THE INTENTION: TO SEE WHY YOU ARE FEELING - AND WHY YOU REALLY ARE FEELING - THEM. And not just trying to work it all out with your mind. But to really uncover the truth of why you’re feeling so bad with your feelings.
I’m constantly tempted to use my mind to do that. I have a bad feeling, I scan back into my early life now as I’m more in touch with it, and then quickly use my mind to grab onto a mental explanation of why I’m feeling bad - ah, mum used to do that to me, she treated me like that, yes, I understand that with my mind, and so that explains why I’m feeling bad. Instead of keeping my mind out of it and allowing the truth to come of its own accord. And when it does, it goes way beyond anything I was able to work out with by using my mind.
Yes, and you feel it immediately connects you with yourself, with that forgotten and hidden part of you, that being something your mind can’t do.
Yeah it does, that then giving rise to the feeling and knowing that it is the truth I am seeing and not just something I’m making up for myself.
If you choose to heal yourself of your negative mind state, of your evilness, you are going to be faced with masses of very bad feelings, and for a lot of people a great amount of self-hated. And to be faced with the truth that your parents didn’t love you as perhaps you have believed and convinced yourself they did; and even to have to accept that they didn’t even want you, even though they said they did; and to have to face the truth that you feel you are the nastiest, evilest, slimiest, vilest, most putrid person alive, and you should be instantly killed and everyone should spit on you, thrown stones at you, string you up and nail you to a cross... is hard going, and certainly very trying. But if those terrible feelings are in you, they are in there for a reason, and it’s those reasons you have to find out - the truth of why you’re feeling this way about yourself. And it will come down to how you were treated by your parents. And as most people hold their parents high above themselves, up there on some sort of pedestal, two people who are only good, always right, and always loving of you; to have to bring your parents down off that pedestal and accept all through your feelings that perhaps that love wasn’t all it was made out to be, can be very harrowing. It’s gruelling, to have all your beliefs, the whole fantasy of your life, the false picture of yourself you’ve diligently worked at making for yourself; to have it all shown up to you for what it truly is...
I know Mary.
And yet it has to be done, everyone has to do it some time, be it now on Earth or when you’re in spirit. You will all have to work on uncovering the whole truth of yourselves, so that being, the whole truth of your rebellion.