I’ll begin James, Jesus.
Your problem is you deny aspects of your personality - of yourself. This being seen in your refusal to accept and so express many of your feelings. And in particular, your bad feelings. It’s all very easy really, and is why you feel bad in any way, and why any bad things happen to you. You started off life being denied the full expression of yourself, so you didn’t feel fully loved, and as you’ve formed you’ve mistakenly believed that this is the right way for you to be, so all you do is done to keep your self-denial and negative unloving behaviour patterns and the beliefs that sustain them, in place. And you live refusing to accept these aspects of yourself in the erroneous belief they are wrong and you shouldn’t feel them. But they are you because you do feel them, and so you should go the other way and accept them. And if you were to do this, then you’d be fully accepting yourself, fully self-loving, feeling fully able to express all you feel and think in life. This being what you can do to fix your problem. As you seek to uncover the truth of why you are as you are, that being living denying parts of yourself, then as the truth comes, so you can see the folly of your ways, change yourself by choosing to no longer be as you are, thereby healing yourself of your negative, unloving, self-rejecting and so evil state.
Evil is the condition of truth denial. If you deny the truth, so deny the truth that you are feeling bad when you do feel bad by denying any bad feeling, then you are treating yourself evilly. And as you treat yourself evilly, so you treat another, nature and God, evilly. As you deny yourself, so you deny others. As you limit, restrict, condition and control your feelings and feeling expression, so you do that to other people. And where your real trouble lies in all of this, is that mostly you don’t see that you are doing such things. You say, that man is evil because of the horrendous acts of violence or cruelty he is doing, and because you are not behaving as he is, so you rationalise that you are not evil, you are even good, right, true and loving. However, as true as it is that this man is evil, it’s just that you refuse to look more closely at your own actions and motivations, and if you did, if you enlightened yourselves to the truth, you’d also see that in your ways, you too are evil, you too are denying many aspects of your own self-expression, and so will be doing so in your relationships and interactions with other people, nature and God. You might not actually be outrightly hurting another person or creature, but still you are evil because you are not living true to yourself. And you have all rights to continue to pretend you are not evil, or not as evil as the man who murders and rapes or sexually abuses his children, but still, at the end of the day, you will have to deal with your evilness, as will this man. You will have to see the truth of how you are denying yourself, your true and full self expression, and in your ways, just as he will in his ways.
So what you’re saying Jesus is that any denial of our personality expression is evil?
But what about primitive man, say before the Rebellion and Default was imposed on humanity, those people weren’t perfect — where they?
In their imperfection they were perfect. And I mean, that for the level of truth growth and personality evolution, although they were not as perfect as say compared to someone living a Celestial level of truth, still, for what they were, they were true to themselves. They were expressing themselves, and so their personalities, as perfectly, fully and truly as they could. So, although they were still imperfect, they were perfect in their imperfection if you know what I mean.
And had you not all been subjected to the intrusion of the Rebellion and Default, you’d all be still evolving your personality expression toward the Celestial level of true perfection; or as one might say, the first real stage of true personality perfection. So although you’d still not as yet be at that level of truth, you’d still be living true to your lower levels of truth, so still be prefect in your lesser truth or imperfection.
But you had the wilful intrusion of the Rebellion and Default forced upon you, and this then interrupted and interfered with your natural personality evolution, thereby confining you to continual levels of self-denial and personality imperfection - to evilness, and all until you decide that you don’t want to be as you are, and set about healing yourself by seeing the truth of your error.
So really our lives are about our true and full personality expression.
Yes, that’s what it - everything in Creation, is about. It’s about what God is all about. It’s about bringing into being the full expression of your soul personality. Soul seeks eternal personality expression. At the moment of your incarnation, your soul starts to express one part of its duality, its personality - you, in Creation. And ideally, it wants to keep being able to do this forevermore without any interference. But you don’t allow it to. So you live in rebellion against yourself - against your own soul; and you do by default, as you don’t know you are doing it, you’re mostly unconsciously of it. And your self-rebellion is as I said, your refusal to allow yourself to freely and truly express all the attributes of your personality. So if you deny one feeling, you are denying and so rebelling against yourself. So you are being evil to yourself, and so are expressing evil in Creation - you are evil.
You know, after all these years of talking to you and Mary about it and discussing it all with Marion I’ve not understood that, that I am being evil to myself, that I’m treating myself evilly. And I am!
That’s right James, and it’s what everyone has to wake up to if they want to end all their self-denial and so stop bad things happening to themselves. For you see, bad things only happen to you in keeping with your beliefs that bad things should happen to you, all because you are denying yourself. You are saying to yourself, ‘I am bad’, because that’s what you’re parents told you, how they treated you, and so how they made you believe; and so because you are bad, then naturally bad things should happen to you, because bad things happen to bad people, also what your parents told you.
So if we were perfect and true, not one bad thing would happen to us. You were true and prefect and yet I don’t think I could say being nailed to a cross was a good thing to have happen to oneself.
It wasn’t good, it was bad, but it didn’t make me feel bad, and that’s the big difference between us. If it were to happen to you, you’d feel bad, because it would tie in with your self-denial, self-blame, self-hatred.
It didn’t make you feel bad? Surely it hurt physically at least.
It did, but that didn’t make me feel bad. Me, the person, Jesus, I still felt good, and in fact, even though their was considerable physical pain, I felt very good, the best I’d felt because I was ending my life on Earth soon to return to the Mother and Father and soon to resume my true spiritual life free of all the restrictions that has been imposed on me.
Did you like your physical life?
In so much as it was a good and true and perfect life. But the more I progressed, I longed for my true spiritual life. My feelings of myself being a spirit were very strong within me, and grew more so each day. And by the time of my death, in many ways I was more spiritual than physically, longing to cross over and resume my spiritual life. By the time I died, my physical life was merely a means to an end, that end coming about upon my physical death. So I was looking forward to dying. I wasn’t looking forward to leaving Mary, however that was only going to be for a short time, and it was vital and very necessary for her to keep experiencing all her rejection by humanity, all of which helped her remain and look deeper into her feelings, all to see that was the truth of where all your problems lay, all so she’d be able to impart such truth and understanding to those spirits in the mansion worlds who no longer wanted to remain as their evil selves, in their personality-denying lives.
So if we were perfect, bad things might happen, and yet we might not see, or rather - feel - them as bad, not as we see and feel them now.
Yes, that’s right. It’s all a matter of perspective, of belief really, however not one you can contrive with your mind, but one based on and lived through your feelings. It is a bad thing if you feel it’s bad, but the same experience can be good if you feel it’s good, and you’ve had experiences like this James.
Yes I have, and more so as I’ve progressed in my healing. Many of the things that happen to Marion and I now that we used to feel were very bad, don’t bother us at all; or, as you say, we even enjoy them, they making us feel good. But we’ve still got a million things that happen to us that still make us feel bad.
You’ve not completed your healing James, give yourself time.
Well Jesus, it would certainly be a different way of living.
Yes, that being what everyone will experience when they stop denying themselves, stop treating themselves badly and evilly.
Thank you again Jesus.
It’s my pleasure James, I’m glad I can shed a bit more light on your problems for you. I’ll speak to you soon.