So the way to heal yourself, as we’ve spoken of before, is to simply look to see what feelings you are refusing yourself to feel, and accept them instead of denying them. And to fully accept them, you look to express them, speak about them, let them have their say, rather than pushing them aside, refusing to let them make you feel bad.
So we’re to allow ourselves to feel bad, is that what you’re saying Mary?
So Mary, this is how we are to grow spiritually, by seeking the truth of our feelings.
So what about all the other stuff in religions and spiritual systems, all the beliefs and understanding, all the concepts and even truth — what does that do for us?
Mostly it just keeps you bound up in your self-denying states. The more beliefs you can add to your mind, the more control you are giving it over your feelings, and so the more you’ll deny and keep the truth from yourself.
You see James, we are designed — created — to be self-revealing of truth, and so we are all to uncover the truth within ourselves and for ourselves, and all being done by living true to our feelings. So any mind interference will only empower ones mind to stop one naturally truly and freely expressing feelings to uncover the truth of them. And so if you choose to bind yourself up with a lot of religious and so-called spiritual beliefs, then you’re not going to allow yourself to accept all those feelings you are currently denying. Such beliefs are all to help you stop feeling bad, you pray and ‘believe’ and worship, all in the hope that you are doing the right thing by God, and so are going the right way, all so you will feel good. But really you’re only doing all of that because underneath, you’re feeling bad.
So such religious and spiritual beliefs are doing us more harm than good.
Yes. If you have to fit yourself into a set of beliefs so you can become part of the system, then you are affecting killing yourself, because you are then selectively denying other parts of yourself. And even though Jesus and I tell you many things, it’s only information, we don’t expect nor want you to even ‘believe’ us. We just want you to think about, if you want to do so, the notion that you might be denying some parts of your personality expression, and that if you are, it’s because of this that you are feeling bad; and so to make yourself feel truly good, you have to stop doing this bad thing to yourself, and go the other way, loving yourself by accepting all your feelings. And then if you accept, express and seek the truth of your feelings, then truth will come to you, and you’ll grow spiritually. And it’s as easy as that. So you don’t have to belong to any group or church or system, you do it all yourself. However a lot of people won’t find that very appealing because belonging to a group or system in which they share like beliefs, attitudes and behaviour, is all apart of what makes them feel good, it all helping them to further block out the bad feelings they are refusing to feel, so they’ll not want to relinquish doing such things and allow themselves to instead feel how they actually are feeling underneath, that being: bad.
So people only belong to such systems to help make themselves feel good, when really they are feeling bad.
Yes. And that’s how you do everything, it’s all to make you feel good - all, so you hope, and all because you feel bad. You can only feel bad being evil, by living untrue to yourself, by living against all that is good, true and beautiful; living in a negative feeling-deny state of mind and will. You can’t actually feel truly good because there is no truth and so no true love. Yet because you don’t understand this, and because you don’t want to admit this is actually the truth of how you are, you use your mind to make yourselves feel good, true and loved, but such feelings are not real or true, they are all based on, and so conditioned by, your mind and its beliefs. And all because you believe the worst thing you could do in the world to yourself would be to give in to those bad feelings. You’re afraid that if you do that, then with no good feelings to feel ever, how will you survive, how will you cope, what will you do, and who wants to live always feeling bad. Yet the truth is, underneath your pretence of feeling good, you already feel bad, and so there is no real escape from such bad feelings, other than of course, doing more of what you’re already doing to yourselves - deny all the bad feelings you can. So Jesus and I are wanting to point this out to you, so you can perhaps reconsider what you want in life, and if you do want to live true to yourself, then you are going to have to give up all your bad-feeling denying things you do, and look to allow yourself to feel bad, and so very bad, and bad all day long if that’s how you feel, and bad for years and years. AND, all the way along, LONGING FOR THE TRUTH OF SUCH BAD FEELINGS, all so you find out the hidden and underlying causes of them, and heal them, which naturally happens when you see the truth of them, so your bad feelings will leave you as you’ll no longer have that dysfunction within you that’s been making you feel bad. And as you know James from your healing experiences, facing and accepting all your bad feelings is not fun, however, if you choose to go down this road, you’ll only be made to feel as bad as you need to feel at any one time so as to bring up the truth of those feelings. It’s a progression, you won’t just completely fall in a heap drowning in the agony of your pain, it all being too much; you’ll be able to still carry on, but with a different focus and intent in life, that being: to uncover the whole truth of yourself.
And really James, when you do feel bad in life, that is your starting point. Simply take those bad feelings, and instead of doing what you usually do to ignore them or make them go away, go with and ‘into’ them by speaking about them, and at the same time, longing for the truth of why you’re feeling them. And just take it one bad feeling at a time. And in time, if you feel it’s something you want to keep doing, then you can, it gradually becoming more of what you do in life; or, if it’s too much like hard work, you can stop going back to how you were.
And so if we didn’t feel bad to begin with, then we’d probably not do half the things we do.
You’d not do ANY of the things you do, as you do them. Some things you still might do, but you’d do them with completely different motives and feelings. And as people start to live this new way, so the world will change, because people will find there are other things they’ll want to do, no longer needing to do what they are currently doing, all as part of their bad-feeling denial, all being done to block out all the hidden and repressed bad feelings they’ve still got tucked away and buried inside them from their forming years and early childhood.
So we’ve created these huge religious organisations, all just as something to help us keep denying our bad feelings.
Yes. And all that you believe they will do for you, they won’t. They’ll do the very opposite, that being, help you stay exactly where you are, or even further your minds control over your feelings.
So none of mankind’s religions can actually help us in a positive way.
No, they can only help you maintain, or further, your negative state. They have all been formed because, and in response to, and so out of, your evilness, and so that’s all they’ll do for you — keep you in it. And if you could visit the mind mansion worlds, you’d see the billions upon billions of spirits who are still actively involved in their church or religion or new spiritual belief system, all still merrily doing the same thing. All believing they are on their way to become at-one with God, with All There Is, with Source, with Spirit, with the Heavenly Father, with Jesus, with the Lord, with the Creator, with The Great Personality, with Mind, all with who they think God is, but all they are really doing is advancing their minds control over their feelings, denying themselves their natural and daily truth growth, and really doing nothing more than going around in circles still outworking their childhood repression. They are doing nothing to face and address the real issues of their feeling- and self-denial, of their evilness. And so such mansion worlds are kept separate from the rest of Creation because they are refusing to accept and acknowledge the truth: that they are living in rebellion against themselves, and so against Creation - against God.
And what will happen to them?
They will be allowed to remain in this condition, just as will people on Earth should they still want to remain in their feeling-denial, until God says, enough is enough.
And will God say that?
The Mother and Father are saying that now James, that’s a part of the reason why Jesus and I are speaking to you about all of this, and why you and Marion are working your way through your healing so you can know for yourselves that all we are saying is real and true. It’s the beginning of the end so to speak, the end of humanity’s Rebellion and Default.
Is it really Mary, or are you only saying this to me in compliance with my remaining negative mind patterns, and it’s what I’m hoping is happening.
Both James, however, it is also true, and this you can feel within yourself anyway, you’ve progressed enough in your truth to feel this for yourself.
It is, as Jesus and I have said, our age is coming to a close, we are in the official end times, and not only is it the end of our spiritual age, but also of humanity’s rebellion. However, that is all on technical levels, and so far as humanity collectively ending it’s evilness, that is going to take a long time.
So all you’re saying is the way for us to end our evilness within ourselves, and if enough people were to do it, then things would no doubt change.
Yes, slowly at first, but then gaining pace. There will of course be a lot of resistance to it, both individually as people strive to live true to their feelings, and collectively, as you and Marion have found within yourselves, however every feeling someone accepts, expresses and uncovers the truth of instead of denying, will be another step into the light.
So individually and collectively we’re going to be clawing our way out of the darkness.
Yes. It’s going to require a great effort, however as things are changing currently to take people even further from their true selves, so every day people are feeling more bad feelings, and in the end will be happy to be offered an alternative instead of trying to keep denying them, the alternative being: to accept them. The squeeze is coming, it will be exerted on humanity from all quarters, inner and outer, all to start you to feel that you’re losing the control over yourself and your lives that you think you have. And people will have to work harder to keep their self- and feeling-denial in place, but as it becomes known that you don’t have to do that, and to do so is only going to make life even harder for you than it is, so giving in to and embracing your feelings, learning to love and appreciate them and what they are really trying to show you, will show people that they don’t have to keep on living causing themselves more and more pain.
Mary, can you talk more about these pressures that might possibly cause people to seek an alternative way of living - by accepting all their feelings, instead of only some of them.
Yes James. You are currently observing changes taking place with the earth itself.
The increase of earthquakes, the magnetic field altering, the increased volcanic activity and the weather changes.
Yes, and all that’s only going to increase further.
How much further?
I can’t tell you exact details, that would be my interfering too directly with you, however suffice to say, much further. The websites you keep an eye on that are forecasting such change are not too far off the mark.
So we’re in for a rough ride.
Yes. However how it will affect the individual, like everything, is up to you as to whether you try and fight the change or flow with it. But to flow with it, I mean to accept, express and seek the truth of your feelings, to go right into them as such changes bring up bad feelings within you. And not to simply use your mind to try and ride out such changes, doing what you do to keep denying your bad feelings.
Okay, so it doesn’t really matter, as Marion and I have experienced, that dramatic things happens outside us, as our soul is obviously more than capable of making us feel bad using only the slightest bad things.
Some people will need a heavy intrusion from the outside to drastically shift the axis of their lives, to create great change, and so much so that they will experience something of a breakdown as they struggle to give up their old beliefs trying to adjust to what life is making them live. But as I said, if one fights, then the fight will be long and hard and inevitably many will lose - which mind you will be a good thing. But if you go with your feelings instead of resisting them, it will be so much better. If you seek the way of truth as Jesus and I are revealing and offering to you, then it will help you no end in your adjustments to all that is thrown at you by life. And at times it might feel like it’s a hell-ride into oblivion, however if you keep going expressing all the bad feelings whilst longing hard to see and find the truth of them, wanting to see and accept that truth that comes, you’ll find that all you go through will be nothing more harrowing that what you’ve already gone through, that being what you suffered during your early life. And now being an adult you can express and find the truth of it all the way along rather than just being subjected to it without you having any say in it, as what happened to you during your forming years.
Okay, so we can expect lots more earth changes.
You’ve not as yet experienced any real earth changes James, they haven’t as yet begun.
Okay, so I’ll think about that one, unless you want to say more.
No, I’ll leave that to your imagination. However I will add, they won’t all happen quickly and be over and done with, it’s a whole cycle of changes that will happen over a number of years. With many happening after you’ve died.
Okay, so we’re building up to them.
So what other pressures can we expect to be brought to bear on us?
Microbial. Humanity will see that its interfering with the natural way of things is not living in its best interests.
We’re already seeing signs of this, with all the GMO’s and the vaccinating making people sicker rather than better; and the fact that it seems, so I was reading, that some people are concerned that antibiotics won’t be much good after another twenty years or so.
That’s right, all of that and more. There are still elements of the natural world you don’t as yet understand, and these will become more obvious - you’re not understanding of them - as they make themselves felt.
When something, a living creation, be it a micro organism, a higher level of life: a tree, an animal, a human, is not living true to itself, then nature, which is always striving to maintain natural love perfection, seeks to destroy that which is imperfect, remove it, and so things don’t go too well for it. It might be able to maintain some life for a certain period of time, but its destruction will inevitably result, so it will not be able to live a full true and perfect life. And so it’s the same with people.
However because you have a soul, it can prolong your physical destruction if that be what is desired by its pattern, if that’s what God desires, all so you can maximise your required life experience. However as the pressure coming to bear on humanity is all designed to make life harder for you, to show you that you are going against yourselves and nature, that you are wrong, that your intentions and motivations are evil, then it will be increasingly more difficult to maintain your health if you are intent on living furthering the denial of your feelings. And it will have nothing do to with what you believe, whether you are a church-going Christian or an atheist, as it will all only depend on how many bad feelings you are denying, how much you are going against yourself by resisting growing in truth through your ongoing feeling acceptance.
Of course a lot of people are clinging to their faith in the hope they will be spared all the bad stuff.
Yes of course, but it will all turn out to be futile in the end. And really what do you want; do you want to keep going on in your present course denying so many aspects of yourself, all so you can keep living in pain, keep suffering, all whilst pretending to yourself that you’re happy and have loving relationships, all serving to keep you forever confined to this miserable state. Or, do you want to go with your feelings, accept that your life is wrong, that you are going the wrong way, and stop hurting yourself, and so start your ascension of truth to Paradise. You can brake out of your self-imposed imprisonment in your evilness and aspire to heal yourself and become of Celestial light, love and truth, there to move ever higher and deeper inwards towards the Mother and Father; or you can remain restricted to the mind mansion worlds until such time as the Mother and Father says no more. And should that happen, then be faced with the huge task of undoing all the self-denial you’re suffering, feeling all the pain of such age-long abuse, all whilst you then struggle to come back to your true self.
So the more time one spends in their self-denial the more pain they are causing themselves, which is self-evident; but also the more suffering they will have to endure to heal themselves of their negative state.
All right, so what else is going to happen to humanity?
All that you do to yourselves. Things are going to become very hard economically as many people are currently forecasting. There will be wars, big wars, as those in power start to assert more control, as they feel the power they have slipping away from them.
Mary, I think a lot of people believe the governments will do what they do and make things better again so life will return to normal, the good old days, whatever they were, and all the current economic problems will be overcome or fixed.
Many people and indeed also mind spirits do think along those lines, and many of the problems will in time be overcome, but not before causing a lot of suffering. Many things are going to change James, and it might even be said, everything. And although as I said, the majority of people will fight and hate all that happens, it is the best thing that can happen. The worst thing is for humanity to be able to keep going along on its merry way as it has these past two thousand years, that would only cause you more suffering in the end, making it increasingly difficult for you to extricate yourselves from your negative states. But it’s not to go that far as that would be too self-defeating. Evil is to serve a purpose, that which you’re finding out, that which the whole of humanity will find out, but there’s nothing to be gained by it were you to completely give into it and be annihilated by it, for that is its end point.
Evil is personality denial, as we’ve talked about. So for evil to actually win, were such a thing possible, that would mean cessation of all personality. And that’s not going happen because Earth offers too much valuable life experience for humanity to wipe itself out. And no great space rock is going to crash into you as a statement of God’s wrath and being finally fed up with you. God, your Mother and Father, have put you in it, They are doing it all to you, and They will show you why They are and all They want you to gain and see by it, as you grow in truth. And there is a vast amount of life experience to be had, as you and Marion are understanding in your small ways. To be forced into evil, then to live it wilfully, then to heal yourselves of it, offers you a huge rage of experience. And once you’ve completely healed yourselves of it, you will cherish.
Yes, I have to admit it, it does, on our better days, fill us with awe and we’re amazed by it; and even dare I say it, are grateful for the whole horrible experience.
You will end up treasuring it James.
You’ve said such things like that to me before Mary. I can intellectually understand what you say, but I sure would love to get there with my feelings.
All in good time, it’s all valuable and vital, every moment of your suffering and your healing of it, as one day you will see.
Yeah, which is all very well when you’re not feeling like shit.
I know, but feeling like shit is just what your soul currently needs you to feel, and you know how to embrace such shit feelings and feeling like shit.
Yes, Mary - express them whilst longing for the truth of them. I do the best I can, but you know, sometimes it’s all too much, it’s too hard. And I get sick of it, even though it is and has helped me so much, but I feel too fucked.
I understand James, and you can only, and should only, do what you can. Nothing more is being asked of you, you do it only if you feel you want to do it. There is no pressure on you from Jesus or myself or the Mother and Father do anything you don’t want to do. It’s all what you want to do, you’re only to do it for yourself, to heal yourself of your unloving state.
Oh I want to do it all right, but when you’re right in the depths of your dark, cold and lonely hole and you feel so bad, and you’ve felt so bad for so long, well...
I will speak to you soon James.
Bye Mary, and thank you once again. I’ll go and speak to Marion about how bad I’m feeling.