The truth James - the truth of your lives; the truth of yourselves, which in turn will lead you to the truth of God. And to find that, as we’ve touched on, one needs to look to ones feelings, for it’s within feelings that one will find such meaning.
Much of your approach to life is based on trying to find meaning with and through your mind, but this only leads you around in circles, and eventually to a dead end. Only feelings will truly liberate you. Only through your feelings will you find what you are looking for. And it’s all so simple, right there in front of your nose all the time: feelings; your feelings are trying to tell you what you need to know, they are always trying to show you the meaning you’re longing for.
So if it is our feelings, then why don’t we naturally find the meaning, why after all these years are we still searching?
So we believe we’re being spiritual by longing for the Divine Love, reading the Padgett Messages and The Urantia Book, by going to church, by saying our prayers, by believing all we’re told is important to believe, and yet what you are saying is that really the only real and easiest way for us to be spiritual, is for us to honour, embrace and accept all our feelings.
Yes, it’s as simple as that.
You understand James, as I said, your soul has been designed to bring you, its personality into being, and for that to happen on a personality level, you need what is called your will. And what your will does is will your feelings into being, first, and then your thoughts. And so you live being driven by feelings, your feelings making you feel to do this and that. Which ordinarily would be the right way to live, because as you naturally went along expressing all you felt, truth, meaning and understanding, would result. It’s a natural process, effortless and thoroughly enjoyable. You’d lovingly look to all your relationships as sources of feeling inspiration, so you’d put into them as much as you could so as to generate as many feelings as you could, all whilst knowing such feelings would then lead you deeper or further into yourself, always helping you see more about yourself, and also everyone else, nature and God. So you’d be happily growing in life, loving your relationships and feeling very strongly connected in life. And life - your life, would make sense to you. However unfortunately, this is not how you live, as you’ve all been prevented from doing so. And the biggest part of that prevention is, that you’ve been, right from conception, forced to deny certain feelings, and mostly bad ones. So your natural growth of truth, or finding meaning, has been thwarted, with your mind being made to take over, making up all sorts of things for you to believe life is about, stopping you from feeling what it is about. And then added to this, your mind has also been allow, and even forced, to make up feelings for you to feel, so you don’t actually know from the point of view of truth, if your feelings are true; that being, true feelings based on or being derived from truth, or false feelings if you can call them that, being derived from untruth. So you can passionately feel something to be true, however those feelings, even great loving feelings, might still be only coming from your mind, being derived from your beliefs and behaviour you’ve been led to believe is acceptable. So as part of your Feeling-Healing you will have to work your way into all your feelings to see if indeed they are coming truly from your heart and soul, or if they are being heavily influenced by your mind. And this will then lead you into questioning and uncovering the truth, if there is any, to your beliefs and why you behave the way you do; and is such behaviour based on truth, or is it based once again on untruth, belief, and rules of your mind.
Okay, so what you’re saying is there is only feelings, they are the true way, and really because of that, you can scrap all the religions and spiritual belief systems and ideologies because they are mind created and based on beliefs, all adding to our true-feeling denial.
Yes. However, so far as a humanity evolving into being is concerned, it is important for it to go through such a religion and religious stage, but to eventually evolve its way out of it. So what Jesus and I are offering you, revealing to you, showing you, is the way to now move beyond such constraints if that’s how you want to live.
And from what I read in the Padgett Messages, and from what other spirits have told me, the spirits who embrace the healing of their negative state and the Divine Love, who move from the mind mansion worlds into the Divine Love worlds, and who heal themselves and move into the Celestial levels, don’t have a specific religion they live, having all given up their religions and spiritual beliefs. And so presumably, that’s what’s in store for people on Earth to do at some point.
That’s right James, these spirits are simply living the Religion of Feelings, which is really only the Religion of Life, and hence: Light and Life; light being that which is generated by your feeling experiences; that which moves into your soul, triggering more soul-light to come out advancing your personality expression and truth evolution to the next level.
So it’s the light from our feelings, and not from our thoughts.
Feelings are real, they are true, in that they have substance, they are permanent, because you feel them. Thoughts are transient, they come and go, and beliefs are only your choosing to keep your thoughts in place by using your mind. So when you free yourself of your controlling beliefs, you’ll find that as you start to live a true feeling-led life, then your mind, having being broken down, will give rise to the necessary thoughts, ideas, concepts, understandings, insights and so on, that you need, but all to help you further understand your feelings. How you currently live is using your mind to dominate and control your feelings, which is the wrong way for it to be used. It should be used in support of your feelings but NEVER taking over from them. So to come back to allowing yourself to be feeling-led, something you have to understand you’ve never experienced, as your mind was made to take over right from the beginning, is a huge undertaking. And it’s NOT something you can do with your mind. It’s something you can ONLY do with your feelings. So being so heavily programmed to live according to your mind, to stop that, and go the other way and live according to your feelings, well, that’s what lies ahead of humanity, that’s the great challenge that awaits you. And it’s what Jesus and I can now reveal and speak to you about.
Okay, so then, how do we do it?
First of all you decide it’s something you want to do. To start to look to see how you’re denying feelings, to acknowledge to yourself that you are. And then to decide you want to stop doing it. And if you do, that you want to stop because you don’t want to keep hurting yourself, because with every feeling you are not expressing; with every feeling you are keeping locked away in yourself, you ARE hurting yourself. And although you might not feel like you are hurting yourself, you are; and you’re in great inner and soul-pain because of all the millions of feelings you have denied since your early life. And all those feelings are still within your soul, if you like, encoded as light-experiences, and waiting for you to express and fully feel them. So all your denied feelings are still ‘alive’ and real, and waiting for you to one day express. And whilst they are waiting they are causing you all your pain. So you decide that you want to stop denying any feeling and bring out all your hidden or buried ones. And why you want to do this, this part being as equally important as accepting and allowing yourself to express all your feelings, is to uncover the truth of them, of why you’re feeling them - why you feel bad. You want to know: what’s happening now in your adult life, and what happened back in your forming years to make you feel these bad feelings - the truth of your relationships.
So you want to find and then live the whole truth of yourself, or simply - the real and true you. You decide that you want to stop being awful, unloving and mean to yourself by denying these parts of yourself, your bad feelings; and instead be nice, kind, loving and accepting of yourself, allowing yourself to feel such feelings, to bring them out, to let them have their say, to express them, all so you can find the truth of them. All so that by finding the truth, you are advancing your personality, advancing your soul in truth, living a true spiritual life, that which you’ve been created to live.
You will is currently focused to keep you in your feeling-denying negative state, so you have to use your will, re-focus it, to stop being this way. And how you achieve it is James, as you and Marion have been doing over these healing years, by trying to accept all your bad feelings, allow them to be, and to bring them out of you by expressing them to one another, all whilst you long to uncover the truth of them. And as the truth comes, so you’ve been led by your soul back down into your early childhood uncovering what you call your Childhood Repression. And as that’s happened, so you’ve come to understand the true nature of your relationship with your parents, and grandparents, they being the most influential people in your early life; together with the true nature of your relationship with yourself, and with other people - particularly Marion, and with nature and God.
And it’s been very hard work Mary, feeling so bad most of the time and laboriously trying to express my feelings, which I’m no good at, and being such a pain for Marion who effortlessly expresses hers. However as you say, it’s all worth it because I know I’m going in truth, I’m changing, and over the years my mind has lessened its grip on me. I’ve been mentally broken down, and I am much more aware of my feelings. However, I’ve still got some very deep feeling blocks in me, beliefs that won’t allow me to express all my feelings. I still believe it’s bad to express them, and in doing so I’m going to get into trouble. I still feel like most of the time, I’m still only about three or four years old, fearing being punished by mum and dad.
I know James, and it is extremely difficult. You have formed into this false you that is bad-feeling-denying. And to change yourself, all your mental, emotional, spiritual, psychic and even physical circuits of your personality that keep your negative evil state in place, is a massive undertaking. However, amazingly, which you and Marion are proving, it can be done. And many Celestial spirits will tell you, they’ve done it.
I do find it amazing how Marion worked it out for herself. She had some good therapists who helped her break through her depression and many of her blocks that were stopping her from expressing her feelings, this being what she did before we met; so when she told me about it, that I was fucked because I wasn’t truly expressing myself - my feelings, and that I had masses of deeply repressed feelings from my early life that still had to come out... well, it sounded good. But gee Mary, to do it. I wrongly thought I’d work through all my shit in a few years, especially with the help of the Divine Love and what is said in the Padgett Messages about the Divine Love removing all our sins and errors. And now, sixteen, coming up on seventeen years later, I feel like I’m still only just beginning in my bad feeling expression, still only just understanding all that’s involved in it, even after all you and Jesus and the other spirits have told me.
You’ve had to work your way up through all seven mansion worlds of truth-denial James, so there’s a lot of feeling blocks within you. And it will be the same for other people. Some people might naturally be a little further on in their feeling expression and resultant truth, having seen the value of their feelings or having undergone some good therapy that might have taken them back through their feelings into their early childhood traumas; but still, there is a lot ahead for all of you to do. And you can start now, and finish your healing in spirit, it’s all up to you as to how much you want to commit yourself to the process; or you can give over to it completely, as you and Marion have committed yourselves to doing, and possibly even finish your feeling-healing during your physical life.
But as I said, you have to do it all with your feelings, long to do it with your feelings. Of course you can understand the principles involved with your mind, however, you’ve got to try and keep your mind out of it as much as you can.
Yeah, Marion’s very good at that, she only relates to life through feelings, I’m far more caught up in all the mental stuff, even like this and our writing about it. Marion’s not interested in writing about it, that’s too much with her mind, she just lets it all come and go through her feelings, and incredibly, she just seems to know it all anyway. For me, she is an example of what Jesus and the Celestial spirits say in the Padgett Messages, that as your mind is taken over by your feelings, you seem to just evolve your mind naturally, you don’t have to school it, all such understanding coming from your increasing truth and feeling expression.
Going to school as you did James, cramming information into your mind, using your mind to take over from your feelings, is all part of your feeling-controlling ways, it destroys and severely limits your feeling expression, and so your personality interaction, and all you might get out of your relationships.
Yeah, don’t remind me, sitting bored out of my brain for hours on end trying to learn all that stuff, most of which I’ve forgotten. When all I longed to do is be out doing things with my friends, being in real life - expressing myself freely.
And it was the same for you at home, confined to being with your mother and grandmother who presented themselves as your early teachers. Bored out of your brain listening to them, unable to express your own feelings, unable to relate to them or life freely as you felt, and so learn about life from the truth you evolved naturally out of your feeling expression.